I feel so very lucky that Debbi is my counsellor
I am not lying when I say I have been addicted for 50 years. While denial hasn’t really been my problem, finding a road out of addiction has been. I have tried everything. From Ayahuasca to antidepressants to AA to Smart Recovery to rehab to rolfing, to dreamwork and rebirthing. That is the short list. I am healthier than I was, and yes, all of these techniques have helped, but in the end, nothing seemed close to touching what was underneath it all. I would stop doing one thing and pick myself up, find another “habit” until I realized that once again, I was going down the rabbit hole….eating, smoking, starvation, drinking, laxatives, sleeping pills, puking, exersize, sex, shopping, suicidal thoughts, work, internet… TV. I’d bite my nails til they bled.
Debbi isn’t the first counsellor that I have had–not by a long shot. I have had a few—leaving me, each time, feeling more panicky that there was no one who could help me. I felt judged and scared.
I feel so very lucky that Debbi is my counsellor now. Lucky, because I have never had a counsellor like her before—she is intuitive, knowledgeable, generous, and trustworthy. Times ten. Importantly, for me–she is also kind.
The last two years have been confusing and painful. I don’t think I could have stuck with sobriety, without Debbi. I might have been able to quit drinking, but I know I would be doing something else, desperately trying to soothe myself, and feeling as lost and empty as I ever have.
Addiction is lonely and dark. If you can find someone like Debbi to help shine some light on what is going on, and sit with you through some of the overwhelming emotional storms, you have a much better chance of finding your way through it.
I’m telling you—this is not something you want to do by yourself, if you can help it.
Debbi has helped me more than anyone or any other technique I have tried.